Mama - Il Divo

Mama, thank you for who I am
Thank you for all the things I'm not
Forgive me for the words unsaid
For the times I forgot

Mama remember all my life
You showed me love, you sacrificed
Think of those young and early days
How I've changed along the way [along the way]

And I know you believed
And I know you had dreams
And I'm sorry it took all this time to see
That I am where I am because of your truth
And I miss you, yeah I miss you

Mama forgive the times you cried
Forgive me for not making right
All of the storms I may have caused
And I've been wrong, Dry your eyes [dry your eyes]

Cause I know you believed
And I know you had dreams
And I'm sorry it took all this time to see
That I am where I am because of your truth
And I miss you, I miss you

Mama I hope this makes you smile
I hope you're happy with my life
At peace with every choice I made
How I've changed along the way [along the way]

Cause I know you believed in all of my dreams
And I owe it all to you, Mama

The Proverbs 31 Woman...

Recently, I have been considering the virtues of being the virtuous wife as they relate to me. This morning it lead to a review of the last 22 verses of Proverbs 31 verse by verse in my journal. Here are my thoughts…

¹⁰An excellent wife who can find?
She is far more precious than jewels.

-Be the young woman who waits on the Lord, work diligently, and trust. She is skilled in many areas. Worth pursuing. She waits to be pursued.

¹¹The heart of her husband trusts in her,
and he will have no lack of gain.

She is faithful with that which is given to her care…reputation, money, children, the home.

¹²She does him good, and not harm,
all the days of her life.

She protects his reputation. She guards how she speaks of him. She is discrete, obedient, and faithful.

¹³She seeks wool and flax,
and works with willing hands.

She sees the purpose and blessing of faithful work…she seeks it and does it well.

¹⁴She is like the ships of the merchant;
she brings her food from afar.

Caring for her family with wisdom in the food she feeds them, both physical and spiritual. Quality is most likely emphasized. Distance and work to provide this do not trouble her.

¹⁵She rises while it is yet night
and provides food for her household
and portions for her maidens.

She is not slovenly. This reflects back to earlier verses. Faithfulness with what is given. She does not expect it to take care of itself. She is on the front lines in her household.

¹⁶She considers a field and buys it;
with the fruit of her hands she plants a vineyard.

Her earlier faithfulness enables her to further bless her husband and family. This is further provision for them. She doesn’t do this without her counsel or her husband’s approval. This will be another jewel in his crown. This is an inheritance.

¹⁷She dresses herself with strength
and makes her arms strong.

She cares for her body. She does not grow lazy or cease to care for her needs. She keeps herself attractive for her husband.

¹⁸She perceives that her merchandise is profitable.
Her lamp does not go out at night.

While she sleeps, that which she has invested in, planted, and worked for is still producing.

¹⁹She puts her hands to the distaff,
and her hands hold the spindle.

She works…nothing is too menial to her. She is capable at everything.

²⁰She opens her hand to the poor
and reaches out her hands to the needy.

She cares for those in need. She does not limit herself and her giving to her family.

²¹She is not afraid of snow for her household,
for all her household are clothed in scarlet.

Quality. Her produce and attention to detail have made sure that those under her care will be well-dressed, warm, and their needs will be met.

²²She makes bed coverings for herself;
her clothing is fine linen and purple.

She dresses well. Quality, once again. Her appearance will not bring dishonor to her husband. Her dress suits the situation. Also, her lovebed is well prepared.:-) Probably cute lingerie is involved somewhere.:-)

²³Her husband is known in the gates
when he sits among the elders of the land.

Her faithfulness and work in what he gives her brings him honor. He is blessed in his wise choice in choosing her.

²⁴She makes linen garments and sells them;
she delivers sashes to the merchant.

Once again, productivity. Her produce is quality. She has more than her household needs so she is able to increase her husband’s income.

²⁵Strength and dignity are her clothing,
and she laughs at the time to come.

She is prepared for what may come. Her reputation and wisdom will stand against whatever is thrown at her. She does not fear for God is her strength and foundation. She trusts Him.

²⁶She opens her mouth with wisdom,
and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue.

Her faith, experience and education have given her wisdom. She shares it, kindly and graciously, instructing others. She is not rude or abrasive. Her counsel is sought.

²⁷She looks well to the ways of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.

She oversees, knows the ins and outs, accounts for the finances, feeds her household, studies scripture. She is always faithfully working, never slothfully lazy.

²⁸Her children rise up and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:

Her work and faithfulness have not gone unnoticed. She receives respect and honor for all she has done and given. She finds rest.

²⁹"Many women have done excellently,
but you surpass them all."

His words of praise to her. He is proud of her, does not regret his choice of her as his helpmeet. This man adores his wife and will die for her.

³⁰Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain,
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.

Focus not on outward beauty or skills, develop inward beauty and all will follow. Fear God, honor Him and He will honor you. Faithfulness yet again.

³¹Give her of the fruit of her hands,
and let her works praise her in the gates.

Her work and faithfulness will be seen and honored. She will not be forgotten.

Blessings...

~Christine

Letting Go...

"For every tear, a lesson learned,
Every good time golden,
But now it's time to let you go,
And I will not be broken."
Girlfriend ~Eve 6.

A voice on the wind, a still moment, a coming understanding, an accepted freedom...all of these are mine tonight.

Letting go...not giving up of hope but the return of the dream to Christ and the Heavenly Father, knowing that no matter what, this is His will and His way...also, one less layer between His heart and mine...and that, in and of it's self, is enough.

Instead of demanding why, understand that it is reason enough that the Father said "No". He saw fit to take away His blessing...He giveth and he taketh away.

"Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the Lord." Psalm 31:24

"Be still and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10

"I know, O Lord, that your rules are righteous,
and that in faithfulness you have afflicted me.
Let your steadfast love comfort me
according to you promise to your servant." Psalm 119:75-76.

"Fear not, for I am with you;
be not dismayed, for I am your God;
I will strengthen you, I will help you,
I will uphold you with my righteous
right hand." Isaiah 41:10

"The Lord of hosts has sworn:
'As I have purposed,
so shall it be,
and as I have purposed,
so shall it stand." Isaiah 14:24

These are but a few of the verses which have comforted my soul in the past few months. Daily I am upheld and strengthen...blessed beyond belief.

Blessings...
~Christine

Dreams Will Come True If They Are From God...

Don't you know that God plants his own lovely dream in the human heart and that when that dream is mature and the time is right for it's fulfillment, well, suddenly to our astonishment and delight, His will becomes ours and ours His. Now who but God could have thought out anything as perfect as this?" ~Peter Marshal in "A Man Called Peter."

Heartbreak...

And the pain comes again.

I trusted...it was broken.

Now Christ must heal the wound.

Time...

One Foot in Front of the Other...

I suppose I'm not the only person who has ever had a perfect plan made only to have God tell you, without any doubt, that you have to change them.

Now, if you are anything like me you go through this 24-72 hour span of time where you are pretty sure the world is ending (and yes, you spend the whole time persuading yourself that everything will be ok) and your friends are saints, listening to you work through your problems. Towards the end of this time period your neuron pathways are beginning to realign to the fact that things aren't going to be how you planned then and your new plan is being formed...

So yes, I had some major plans change and I had a choice...change the plans of loose that which I loved the most. Waiting for God and trusting Him I have discovered doesn't come naturally.

But when you pray, force yourself to trust no matter what, give it to your Heavenly Father something wonderful happens...peace.

It's worth the trial just to reach the peace that comes when you trust God.

~Christine