“Be still, and know that I am God.” ~ Psalm 46:10
This verse graces the wall in the dining area in my apartment and serves as a constant reminder of where my heart should turn in distress and fear. Its simplicity often overwhelms me. It calls forth to my heart reminding me to remember the rock upon which my hope and faith are built.
Recently, I realized how much of my life has been shaped by the pains and hurts of the past. I daily remember them and relive them, sometimes almost as if they were yesterday. One grief will never go away…that of the loss of a Mother. The other two however, they may be safely placed in the past where they belong. They do not define who I am before the community or God. The pain caused by them has, for the most part, been healed. These three pains, significant events in my life that have in many ways led me to be the person I am today, need not however, be all that anyone ever knows of me.
Recently I was asked what it was that I liked…and I confess that I really had no answer. Being a people pleaser and a molder I often find myself doing everything and anything. This question has caused me to stop and think and begin to learn how to say the word “no” when needed. Then, I realized how little I know about who I am in the sense of whom God created to be.
“Who am I?” was the question I asked myself today. “What did God design me for?” “What is my purpose?”
Who am I is the simple answer…I am a child of the Covenant, a daughter to the Most High God. He is the rock to which my tether is lashed. It is in Him that I find my life, laughter, joy, and peace. It is His beauty that I daily pray will shine forth from me. He is my calm in the storm. He is my strength and shield…a very present help in time of trouble.
The other two questions will take a bit longer to answer…but the answer will come. God will show the path and light the way. A path in which trials and troubles will often come. There will be battles to be fought and tears to be cried. But always, ever and unfailingly there will always be that quiet voice that I hear in my sleep reminding me….
“Be still, and know that I am God. Trust me, oh faithful daughter, trust me. Wait for me. All shall be given.”
With that calm quiet voice reassuring my heart as I rest in my bed, chasing my fears away, come those everlasting arms, ever strong and yet so gentle. True peace and comfort find their way to me and with this I fall asleep with that unexplainable peace surrounding me.
A new day dawns…and with it His ever unfailing mercies which are new every morning. Day after day and year after year. His saints are reminded of this often and we often choose to forget it. He, however, remains faithful.
For me, the path has not been shown, but happiness and hope does light the way. I rest easy knowing that if it is for my best it shall not be denied. My happiness is assured.
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.” ~Jeremiah 29:11
